Flightless Bird

Every second you get closer, get older. So why do we waste a lot of our time fighting and arguing about pointless things. I catch myself getting mad a lot of the time for pointless and stupid things. But its sad sometimes, how you put the blame of a lot of things on me. Ask yourself sometimes the things you ask me. If I acted the way you act towards me you would have sleepless nights too. 

I know I’ve got issues but your pretty messed up too.




Um, I have a dad, I’m 18 finally, I have a fish named Pepper, I don’t live in Santa Clara anymore, I am not on the internet 24/7 anymore and it’s better, I kick-box, I work in a hospital part time helping Doctors, I can solve a Rubik’s Cube in a minute, I recently killed 3 spiders on my own, I know my future holds a “MEDICAL” type of job, I’m more aware of things.





April 17, 2009 at 6:04 pm Leave a comment

Life is short.

So I took a picture of this worm, and then about 1 minute later I accidently stepped on it :/ Life is short. I felt really bad, grr. POOR WORM!

February 21, 2009 at 7:17 am 1 comment


“What if, we never had the expectations of wanting to be loved in return, because we had the reassurance of knowing we’re already loved regardless of what we do.”

I’m always the person giving people advice on relationships, love, life, and a lot of other things that may have less importance then the first three. I’ll admit sometimes the advice I give I surprise myself with it. So why is it I can’t take my own advice? People always tell me I must be very good at solving my own problems since I give good advice. It’s not like that at all. I give decent advice, but I don’t know how to give it to myself. I don’t know. So I’ll just live like I mean it, and love till I feel it, even if I am doing it wrong. Maybe someone will show me right.



February 19, 2009 at 6:37 pm Leave a comment

Waking Up

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but it does pass. Even for me…



Thank you, NEW MOON.

February 2, 2009 at 11:50 pm Leave a comment

happpyyy birttthdaaaay


February 2, 2009 at 8:07 am Leave a comment

YOU found ME

I asked where have you been? He said ask anything.

-Where were you when everything was falling apart?


I don’t want to be the girl who has to hear the silence, the quiet scares me because it speaks the truth. It’s true. When you are alone, where its quiet, many things run throughout your mind. I sat today in my car, no music, and no people on the road ahead of me. It was 6:00 am, and it was a work/school day but it was as if the world was still asleep. I was tired and the morning air hurt against my face, I had about a million of things to do that morning. Why do we put things off until that last minute, or just completely put them off? I think a lot of it has to do with fear. Sometimes the fears are just based on making decisions. The fear of making a decision  you can’t undo. This was the first morning I realized that rushing all the time, getting things together, and making things as close to perfect was going to be impossible to do for the rest of my life. My mornings start off, with waking up then laying in bed for another five minutes wishing I could sleep in more. I get up, go to the bathroom do what I need to. Then I hop in the shower, that has to be my favorite thing. The way hot water feels on your body in the morning is pretty much amazing. It wakes you and refreshes you, and then I don’t want to leave the shower. I blow dry my hair and check the temperature outside so I can wear appropriate clothing, either way as much clothes as I wear my body seems to never be pleased, and i shiver my way to the car. You would thing going to a car would help and shield you from the icy air, but you would be surprised. Sitting in that car, waiting for it to heat up a bit is probably worse then getting out of bed, and leaving the warm shower all together. I try to make the best of my mornings, and I won’t lie I do succeed. But that morning rush is what I hate. Waiting in line at Starbucks for my tea, red light  after red light. It seems like everything goes slower when you are in a hurry. Then I get to school, and that is rush number 23823488234823832823, turning in work, running grabbing papers, then finally class time. Most people to me at least seem like class time is the worst time for them. For me its the best, its the calmest on most days and its the only time I’m not rushing. My mom always says if you had time you wouldn’t rush, but the thing is I have PLENTY of time, the problem is how much things I have to do. Therefore I conclude that putting things off is no longer going to work, at least for me.

January 28, 2009 at 12:53 am Leave a comment


I found this little guy by the gas station huddled beside a bush. I named him Oreo, self explanatory 🙂 I took him to Petco this morning and the guy there said he was only a week old, and possibly got lost, or his mother just abandoned him :/


OreoHe is so cute 🙂 I put him in a little box filled with soft cloth,and he is laying on top of a electric blanket. I bought kitty milk formula, since he doesn’t have a mom this is the substitute for that. He really likes it, his belly gets full and he falls right asleep. I’m keeping him, at least until he get strong and big 🙂

January 25, 2009 at 11:37 pm Leave a comment

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