I’ll Miss You.

This morning I went to a memorial service….my friends memorial service. Last night about 4am I got a call from one of my closer friends, and he told me that she passed away in a car accident. Hearing that someone you used to be close to, isn’t there anymore sucks. Makes you feel empty, and guilty. Me and her grew up together, and went to the same school until High school. We stopped talking around 7th grade, and I said I’d never forgive her. She stabbed me in the back, and she could have won an award for lying. But that doesn’t even matter anymore, shes gone. I feel guilty that I couldn’t even tell her that I forgave her long ago. We were only about 13-14 years old? I don’t even know how old anymore. It was a stupid immature fight, but I guess neither of us had the nerve to apologize. And now I won’t ever get the chance to. I mean, it just sucks. I see pictures of us when we were like babies , and toddlers. In my mind she became just another person, and I didn’t ever care that we would never talk. But now, I’d do anything just to tell her I’m sorry, and that I was the stupid one.

I’ll miss you.